I hate to write this post...it just sucks...where I'm at right now.
I have spent the better part of two days at a hospice center - trying to say goodbye to a father I never knew.
Never in a million years would I have pictured myself at the deathbed of a father who was absent my entire life.
Never would I have thought that when this day came I would be filled with so many emotions, least of all sadness.
But I am sad, and frustrated and angry at how life can switch gears on you so quickly that you feel your legs will give out from under you if you move just the slightest inch. I'm walking a fine line between all my emotions right now.
I will be back...when I am back to being myself...I'm trying to find her right now.
I will be back as soon as I can.
Thursday, October 08, 2009
What do you say? What do you say when it just gets better and better....every year, every day. I love you more than I could ever put into words. I love you in my bones, in my breathe in the beat of my heart. I had no idea that a persons capacity for love could grow so much beyond the bliss of "I Do". I didn't know it was possible, but I love you more today than I did then, and I'll love you more tomorrow. I know that whatever happens you are there, in sickness and in health, in good times and bad. You are my foundation, the base upon which all the good things in my life flourish. You make me so unbelievably happy. Thank you Chris, for sharing this life with me.
Happy 5th Anniversary!
Posted by JB at 11:40 AM